saboteuse

In photos, people tagged in pictures would usually just untag themself or ask to have the photo deleted, saying they look “bad”. Usually, to anyone else it is a perfectly normal picture. This is true for me too. I’ve given this a lot of thought over the past few months and it is time to write some of these thoughts down.

Spontaneous photos are those taken w.o the people knowing, in action. These are always unfavorable. Example: photo of u laughing. It’s, again, spontaneous, unrehearsed and natural. It looks bad to you because you don’t see yourself laughing often…unless you’re in front of a mirror. This happens to me all the time so I’m trying to accept it and not untag myself. To anyone else, it looks fine. They see u “in action”, moving about and it is nothing out of the ordinary, so most likely they won’t find the need to point it out.

“Wtf I look so bad here!”

“no you don’t…u look fine” < hate to admit it, but that’s what you look like.

So my point is, we perceive ourselves different from how others perceive us.

I hope I make sense. Its almost 1 am lololol. I started this draft this morning at work. This is just a bunch of thoughts scribbled down. I may further elaborate or delve deeper into this at a later date. Dammit tumblr why do u cut shit off when I post from my phone?

“INTJs are able to leave relationships when they’re over, and get on with their lives. They believe that this is the right thing to do. They may have more difficulty accomplishing the task than they like to exhibit to other people.”

I SRS BELIEVE THIS. I haven’t been in a relationship…so lololol

” and although they prefer not to have to manage other people they will take over if no other leader steps up. “

this is 100% me lol. I like leading.. yet I never do at the beginning. I wait until ppl fail and appoint me leader. then I do my thang ;)

http://www.personalitydesk.com/intj-type-description.php

I like the career list HAHAHA

Yup only 375 million LOL. I believe this was from JPod hahaha :) which is where I found out about this test.

Personality type: INTJ (different from what I did about 1+ yrs ago). found via the myer-briggs persoanlity type test.

Mine is.. “rational mastermind”. Mastermind? I’ll take that anyday! lol. “we” comprise of 1% of the population. verry niaaaaaaace. I was reading the traits and it was pretty accurate. A lot about way of thinking which I’m not too sure of, but then again at this point in life I don’t really do any “deep thinking” cause really… I’m so lazy.

azn-woman:

madeinvietnam:

U doing anything friday or sat? Why wait 8D?

Oh yeah I’m thinking of 2 seperate things. I’m def thinking of sociology!

yeah i think sociology is really interesting too. and no i dont believe i am doing anything on those dates. lets go on friii. but i have no idea where this book place is. im not even sure if ive been to kitsalano.. lol

LOL ok. dw I’ve been there once.. it was pretty cool. I saw a news anchor from Global shopping HAHAHA.

burrard station > 44 UBC bus until we see it. Friday sounds good.

U doing anything friday or sat? Why wait 8D?

Oh yeah I’m thinking of 2 seperate things. I’m def thinking of sociology!

98.8 .. I only beat the other person by .4 :( darn final…

First term: 99
Second: 100 
Final: 97.5-ish I believe.

22/24 MC, 20/20 oral, 19.5/20 composition

*le sigh Well.. Since there is only 1 fr12 class… That means I get da award cuz of my mark. I’m totoally gonna screw up the prov :(

Dad’s reponse: you were 1% away from failing. LOL he means getting beat by the other person lawl!!

After 50+ years of operation, they’re closing for some reason. According to the FB page a lot of people are deeply saddened over this. As a result of this closure, it means there will be books on sale for 40% + off! Ang u wanna hit this place up when we go? Its in kits. I really wany some non-fiction books about the human mind. Sociology I believe it is?

NO JOKE.

I thought I had 3 hrs for some reason, when it was 2, so i took my time. My teacher went up to me and said “checking it over?” me “no…” her “you have 10 mins”

WHAT?! 10 MINS!!!!! So I guessed randomly for 15-20 questions. I hate life lol.

-I realized that studying full time in france isn’t realsitic. I remembered my plan to go on an exchange (study) there in my 3 or 4 year of uni. Besides, the univerisities there are ranked 40-something in the world, which isn’t something I reckon I would be proud of. MCGILL FTW!!

-mcgill mcgill mcgill mcgill mcgill mcgill mcgill mcgill mcgill is on my mind. (Fyi I typed all that. Pure emotion and desire LOL not copy n paste) McGill is a good choice for me. We are not moving until sis finishes hs— so 1 year after me; and if I were to go to ubc I would have to transit there every damn day from this shithole of a city, or find somewhere else to live closer, which would be a waste of $. Plus I wouldn’t be able to live on a rez. <3

Furthermore, it is in the heary of Montreal so there are french speaking people. I…like. Top uni in Canada. Need I say more? Mom was thinking abt my phone plan. In 1.5 year: ill be done hs n dads plan will end so he can take mine before I go to montreal LOL. Then I guess I’d have a prepaid plan when I come back. I would def ramble more but I have my physics final tom. Pzzzz MIV out. Ca suffit?

Last night:

• 3 of my teeth fell out some how. They were on the right bottom side, near the back. 2 teeth beside each other fell out, skipped one and the one after it fell out. I think I was eating or something about to bite hard on it, before realizing they were my teeth. I took them out of my mouth and asked my dad to put them back in for me. He said OK but I woke up before he could.

A while back

• something something I was on top of monkeybars and peter chao was there. I was laughing with him, having fun and then I wanted to get down but I was afraid(LOL), so he helped me. I thought he was a sweetheart. ^-^
• Something else happened..  I remember not meeting him and seeing him at metro. I took a pic with him. He said I was his #6 fan that approached him. He sent 2 pics via twitpic to twitter and I was like <3 <3. I took 3 or 4 with him

In my dreams, lots of random shiz happens, but I don’t realize how odd or out of the ordinary they are until I wake up. I thought it was perfectly normal for my teeth to fall out.

After watching Amelie (FANTASTIC MOVIE BTW) some things have changed; and others have been reenforced.

fdsf

• I want to live in France(FOREVER), speak French fluently. Maybe go to university there!? Seeing the city in the movie made me just *drooool* and hope to live there someday.
• I realllllllllly want to work in the entertainment industry: specifically film. I’ve always wanted to, but decided that it wasn’t worth persuing.

I’m going to research France universities tomorrow.

• go to a shooting range and shoot things. It has been my life long dream to shoot a gun; even if it is only at a target hehehe.
• paintball -. I was supposed to go like in gr.7 but mom paintball-blocked me and took me home. *old resentment comes back* shakes fist
• go kart racing - mario kart just does not suffice. NEED I SAY MORE?
• snowboard - I went in gr.7…..haven’t been since DESPITE dad getting free lift tickets all the time from work n being a “grouse employee” which entitles us to discounts, among other stuff. my god it was so fun.

the quality of lacking taste and refinement

nts: must watch: coco avant chanel

I reallly want to get onto some sort of workout routine. This desire is overwhelming. I’m sure my sis will be on it with me 8)

Sun run 2010 : may 16. I am so doing it